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Kise x Dead!Reader: Lost Again

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Kise walked up to a grave and placed (colour) flowers over it, a sad smile on his face. He knew he had to be strong no matter what would happen. He promised them that. But right now, he wasn't so sure about that.

"Hey, ___________. I know it's been a while. I just wanted to tell you that I lost against Seirin again. Gosh, I'm so weak... I can't even beat one of the members of the GoM. No matter what, it's loss after loss. I can beat any other team but when it comes the Kurokocchi and the others, I lose. I know I'm the weakest out of them. But I just want the taste of victory, you know. I envy Kurokocchi... Kagamicchi... Akashicchi.. Aominecchi... Midoramicchi... Murasakibaracchi... They all have their fair share of victories while I'm left behind. They all have beaten each other. They all lost and won against each other. While they won against me, I lose over and over again. It's... Not fair.

It's not the same without you, ____________cchi. I remember how you always cheered for me and comforted me after a loss. I want that to happen again. But now... I'm by myself. I'm lost without you," Kise's voice began to crack as he choked back his own tears.

Kise remembered it all. He remembered how you laid on the white bed, tired eyes glancing around to take all of his features before she said goodbye. He held one of your hands while the other gentle, shaking hand reached up to brush away his tears before whispering your final words.

I love you, Kise. Keep smiling and be strong. Smile even when the whole world is against you. Smile even if you want to break down and cry.

And just like that, the light left your eyes and your hand fell next to you, leaving a fresh trail of tears trailing down Kise's cheeks.

With those words, Kise always had a smile, even if he was hiding the emotions swelling inside him. He smiled even though he lost you. He smiled even when he was beaten down and want to cry out to the world. He smiled even when others told him to shut up.

But today wasn't a day he could smile.

"_____________cchi, I can't stay strong. Not without you next to me. I love you. Please come back," he whispered, tears spilling from his eyes.

"I need you,"

The moment you died and left him was the moment he realised that he had lost again.
Bruh, I'm on a angsty spree. I literally broke my own feels writing this. Now I'm thinking, 'Why did I even write this about my husband?' then I realised that I lived on the suffering of people.

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WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO MY HEART?? FIRST THE KAGEYAMA FICS THEN THIS!
WHAT IS WITH YOU AND ANGST FICS?? OMFG

jk jk i just... i had to get that out! but don't worry; i love this regardless!! one of the things i like about angst [believe it or not haha] is the quality of how it's written. the better the writer, etc., the better the fic is with bringing out the angst! ahhh and you're one of those fabulous authors who can actually do that! great job! :heart: